Monday, September 13, 2010

What I Did This Summer...

Hello? Hello? Is anyone out there? Testing... One, two, three. I know I have been absent as though I was on summer vacation like a regular school girl. I wish I could say I was busy having fun playing with friends, riding my bike, swimming in the lake at family picnics and enjoying all that the summer sun has to offer. But, alas, I can't. Life has kept me busy and I let myself get into a... Well, I'm not sure what to call it. A good friend of mine likes to use the term funk. So, in taking a cue from my friend Diane, I guess I've allowed myself to slip into a 'funk'. How do you pull yourself back up? How do you force yourself back into the streamline of life among everyone else? 

I've scarcely touched my emails and haven't been in my sewing studio in about three months. I walk past it and glance at the chaos I've allowed to nest. Unfinished projects tossed around in piles. Discarded like an old worn out book whose pages are too faded to read. One of my sewing machines is still in its case from the last sew-in I attended a few months back. Untouched along with the projects I took to work on. My family and friends would be shocked to see the discord. The disorganization I've allowed to take hold of my sanctuary. My sacred place of comfort.

I recently heard a discussion regarding Professor Randy Pausch and his last lecture.   I haven't heard his lecture, but in it he states that in the game of life you must decide whether you are Tigger or Eyeore. And only after you identify who you are can you learn how events in your life affects  you and how you affect your life. I'm paraphrasing based on what I heard. But it really made me think about the state I've been in for the last few months and how I'm the one who has the power to make changes. 

I want to thank everyone who has sent emails and left messages expressing concern. I really have made some wonderful friends and am thankful for each one. I won't get into the pieces of my life that have caused me to retreat into solitude. I will, however, say that I'm working on changes and hope to be regularly posting to my blog again soon as I make my way back into my sewing studio and life again.


9 comments:

Myra said...

Hey Dena! Good to see you come up for air! I know what this funk is, as I experience it myself quite often... Tis a struggle, but you can do it!!! I'm routing for you!!! 8-)

luv2quilt2 said...

It's good to see you again! Here's a little prayer for you:)

JoAnn ( Scene Through My Eyes) said...

How great to see you posting. I know you've been through a lot - so take your time and come back to us and quilting at your own pace.

But I am anxious to see what you will pick for your "first" project - I just love your work. Welcome back!

Quilter Going Bananas said...

It happens to us all Dena, no worries. Check out my Sept 13th blog post it'll make you smile. Looking forward to seeing what you sew when you're ready to go back in there. Sending Hugs :^)

LINDA BYLSMA said...

I've also been absent all summer, but due to too much work, and letting go of some things that have been taking up too much of my time. Sorry about your funk, but be aware that a trip to the doctor might be in order. We all need a little help now and then, and it's nothing to be ashamed of.

Jocelyn said...

I am so glad to see you back online Dena. I've had a little detour myself. Hope you will soon be back to enjoying the things you love the most.

webbsway said...

Hi Dena
We have all missed you and your talents!

You are not along in the "funk" ! I always blame mine on getting too overwhelmed. You know- too much life and you kinda lose your balance for a while.

For me - I start counting my blessings-sometimes writing them down on paper seems to bring them to life for me . That gets my ole juices flowing and kinda leads me down the trail .

Of course sometimes the funk can overcome me because of "family" stuff and that is a hard one to roll with. Sometimes I just take time to have a really good "Pity-Party" . As someone said - To OWN The Problem- kinda like grieving- and it has a Path that it seems to follow - until you learn from it and then you can move on. They say we Always remember the harder lessons more?

Sometimes just knowing that you have friends who care about you (whether it be virtual or physical) helps to lighten the load -!

Ivory Spring said...

Dena,

Long time no chat! It's WONDERFUL to hear from you!!! I hope all is well -- and don't be too hard on yourself. We all need a period of hiatus from time to time.

Hugs.

Loralynn said...

Funny, great minds...work...alike. I just made my first post on my blog in over 2 months. I too have been playing at being Eeyore. I'm trying to pull myself up by my boot straps and whip myself back into shape though. I think we are both on the way to getting out of our funks, admitting it is half the battle.